Friday, December 5, 2008


I HATE MYSELF!!! Just when I'm getting my second day done I go and ruin it all with a binge. I can't stand it! It feels like I'm gonna fail no matter what. Tomorrow I'm gonna be up with my dad's family and I just know that there will be eating there, at the very least I can stave off all eating until then, but still it's not like they are the healthiest eaters... but at least they aren't too bad I guess.

I need to do a better fast, or at least a good week of heavy restricting. I think sunday I'll do a one-day fast and then restrict like crazy. That shouldn't be too stupifying difficult for me, seeing as a two day fast seems beyond me.

God I feel like such a fat-ass for today.

1 comment:

CellarDoor said...

You know what would be a good excuse for not eating at family functions? Say you're vegan. If your family is anything like mine, they'll give you a bunch of shit for it in the beginning, but then they will back off. I went vegan in the beginning of the year, so now at family functions all they feed me is salad with balsamic vinaigrette dressing or steamed vegetables (no butter of course). It's the perfect excuse.
p.s. I love hearing a guys perspective...