Thursday, April 28, 2011

Lost more

So according to the scale today I have lost a total of 7 lb. Is that a lot? For some reason it seems absurd to have lost 7 in two days... Maybe my mind is screwy?

So never the less I will continue on my 0 cal till May plan. May should be a good month the money will start coming in, I've had to Suit Up which seems to oddly fit me, I will lose more and more weight. And if I can maintain this rate of loss maybe my goal of 120 will be closer than I thought.

Well for now keep at it all you lovely boys an girls, K out.

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

Next day

So I apparently lost 2lb yesterday, and yet I'm back into the mindset of "it's only 2 lb that's not enough it needs to be more."

Which, of course, is great as long as that is going I'll keep losing. Only problem is I cut yesterday as well. Now thankfully W is used to me sleeping with a shirt on so I can cover up any cuts to my arm, but not my leg... so I need to keep it in check... especially if he wants us to shower together as he does sometimes. How could I explain it to him? Ugh I shouldn't have cut but now it's too late.

Today will be another 0 cal day I'm actually aiming for a 0 cal week... No cals till May! I think I can do it anyone wanna team up for this?

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Back again, lets make it last

I return again... again. So far today I've had 6 pieces of sugarless gum, 1 diet Mnt Dew, and lots of water. I desperately need to drop the weight. I've been feeling disgusting and awful. As if I hated looking in mirrors before, now I avoid rooms with them if possible.

I just don't know how people can just go about their life eating all this food and being fine with it, or even weirder: happy about it. It's like "Man this deep fried bacon mayonaise blob is DELISH!" says Mr. 300 pound lardass. Seriously what is up with these people?! Eating this shit, forcing it into their face non stop... and then THEY COMPLAIN ABOUT THEIR WEIGHT!

Here's some ideas: put down the mayo, walk further than the distance between your couch and the fridge, bike swim run (or lumber whatev), fucking DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT! Stop bitching that you can't lose weight when you don't even try.

Here I am suffering with my weight, so I eat nothing, drink water and diet stuff, take the stairs everywhere, run swim bike... god damn it this nation of grease and fat disgusts me.