Saturday, January 16, 2010

Salads

Today has gone well I've gone all day on one salad and two diet amps, also plenty of cigarettes. I'm tired of feeling like I'm living in a fat suit, I feel so disgusting and hate myself more than ever. I need to stop slacking and follow my vegetarian diet much closer. What I need is a buddy to help me stay on track even though admitedly I hate asking for help, but I clearly need the help now if I ever plan to get thin.

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

Haha I've started depending on smoking more and more...

I think it might help if you try to view what you're doing as healing, not trying to perfect yourself.

I've noticed I'm slightly calmer around food (even when I'm insanely stressed) now that I've set this "recover from bulimia" goal. =)

Twig~ said...
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Ana's Girl said...

I know just how you feel. The difference is, i really AM a fatty. You're so strong; really, you're an inspiration to me.

One of Ana's Boys said...

Noway you weigh less than me, ah well today is coffee and cigarettes

Anonymous said...

I quit smoking a little while ago and its soooo hard to curb my appetite without it. When I was trying to quit smoking, I used to always think "I'm starving! Okay, I'll either let myself have 3 crackers or I'll let myself have another cigarette... ah fuck it, both make me feel guilty but only one has calories!" Now I don't have the option anymore since I quit. Ughhhh.