Sunday, January 17, 2010

End of day

So I make it all through the day, no food low cal drinks and then J decides he's taking me out for Chinese. FUCK!!!

So I had to eat a plate and a half though I went with food that I knew would fill me up and drank plenty of diet coke. Still I hate these situations that I can't get out of with eating, fuxk can't I have say over at least THIS part of my life?!

The whole time I was considering purging but I couldn't bring myself to, mostly because someone would hear me. Tomorrow should be better, if we go out to eat it'll be small salads an diet soda for me, only problem is dinner not ire what to do about that. I need to find a way to get away from dinner or at least hide my food which I never did before (alway ran away from dinner when possible until my car went down tho that shouldn't be a problem for long).


Ana's Girl said...

I hate it when people insist that i eat. I don't know why they think they have to control the one part of our lives that we have the most control of. It sucks, but it sounds like you did well. Usually when someone makes me eat, i just end up binging. Stay strong, dear.

Mina Belle said...

I can't resist eating when I'm with people :( horrible