Wednesday, January 18, 2012

Day 4

So I wake up today, stomache still hurting. Onto the scale I tread and behold... the same weight I had yesterday. 159 still, seriously?! Come on body, we need to be on the same page here. We need to lose weight, period. The end.

Whatever, maintaining isn't a sin, gaining is. I can deal with this. I guess my calories yesterday were too much, so I'll shoot for lower today. Here's hoping. Also, thankfully, W hasn't noticed anything yet. Hasn't noticed my rules, my lower intake, my tiny little bites, drinking only one can of soda a day instead of 12, drinking more tea and water. I'm glad, I don't want him to catch on, or else he'll try to make me stop, most people would.

And that's why I'm here, to gain support and love from the rest of us. The ones who care deeply about our weight. The ones willing to go to any lengths to get what we need and desire. The ones who know how painful and tough it is, and yet keep going knowing how completely worth it it is.

Laters, K

1 comment:

❤ ♥ Sam [Misha] Lupin ❥ ❣ said...

gah. your body's never on the same page as your desire. it's just a bitch that way. fucking whore. >_< but hey, a maintain is better than a gain, eh? :)
i'm glad he hasn't caught on as well. it takes some time for people to catch on from what i know. i lost i think 40 or 50 pounds before people noticed and that's just insane.
<3 awe. and so we keep striving forward, K!
good luck for day.
-Sam Lupin