Wednesday, July 7, 2010

can't sleep

so here I am on the blog. Yeah I'm bad at keeping the consistency with it all. Apologies. I've just been getting to the level of depression where I can't find a reason to drag myself over to the computer...

Everything sucks right now. I still have no job, no money, and I have to pay for a loan against my Talon as well as the insurance.. I have no gas money which I need so I can go get a job. And noone is willing to lend me some money for gas.

I seem forever stuck in the 130 area, right now at 133. I just wanna drop it down to 100 or less. I have admittedly thought about doing certain things.. but I pull myself back from doing anything... permanent. I just hope my situation improves soon... because right now my life isn't worth living...

4 comments:

Dead Little Girl said...

Hang in there love, you'll get through.

Ana's Girl said...

Life is rough sometimes... The world revolves around money and money is nigh unto impossible to get. The world looks up to thin people, and being thin is harder than most people can ever understand... Hang in there, hunny. It can only get better from here. *hugs*

Christina said...

It sounds like you have a really hard time at the moment.. and I'm really sad to hear that everything seems to be to hard to live with, but you seem like a very strong and wonderful person so I think everything will turn out better soon, just hang in there :)
Lots of hugs
Christina

Katerina said...

I know how you feel. I hate being stuck at one weight. It is the worst feeling in the world. you feel like you're going nowhere. Come on! you're sooo close to your first goal! come on now! <3