crazy world

The world is going crazy, my life is going crazier, and it feels like I'm going craziest. I've been having a mix of days, eating a bit some days, nothing at all others, then sometimes a ton. No purging at all, not really a binge though... I don't going rummaging around looking for food... thankfully. My weight has mostly gone down a few Lb, then it'll go up one or two, then down again. I hate it. My friend will soon be trying a Tuna Diet he heard about, and despite him knowing my past I've managed to get myself in on that diet. It apparently loses quite a bit in a fairly short time, mostly turn fat into muscle... which I worry about. I don't wanna be at all buff, just thin. Super Thin.

Forgive me

Forgive me ana for i have eaten way too much of late. Its hard to fast and restrict with a roomate who knows my past and work with another friend who knows as well. But at least im sick now, my body is burning more cal trying to keep me healthy. Tomorrow i shall fast, and thursday i will restrict as my roomate is cooking. At least my weight isnt going up