Friday, July 29, 2011


So I'm sitting outside of a restaurant where I just had dinner. I'm drunk and just ate, and I want to throw up so bad. But deep inside I know that if I start purging I won't be able to stop. It'll become a habit.

But I've been under so much stress. I've got no money, I'm working two jobs to try and make money, bills are die, both my cars need work done, I'm fat..... I hate everything.right now. I want to purge but I can't do it... I'm so scared I don't know what to do.


Honor Regzig said...

I'd give you a hug if I were there.
If you want you can focus on an issue on your blog... when I load the main page it redirects me to some pro-ana webring. I'm glad they exist but I wish I could read your blog first!
I loaded this entry and told the browser to stop loading soon as I saw words otherwise this entry might have turned into a redirect too!
Your blog and Dying to be Thin are the only blogs thus far where this has happened to me so I don't thing it's my computer
<3 <3 <3

Missing_Angel said...

Hang in there<3
I just wish I could actually help, and like the other comment said, I would give you a hug if I could.

Anonymous said...

I love you're blog! I hope you make another entry soon, hang in there buddy. <3