Friday, July 29, 2011

Scared

So I'm sitting outside of a restaurant where I just had dinner. I'm drunk and just ate, and I want to throw up so bad. But deep inside I know that if I start purging I won't be able to stop. It'll become a habit.

But I've been under so much stress. I've got no money, I'm working two jobs to try and make money, bills are die, both my cars need work done, I'm fat..... I hate everything.right now. I want to purge but I can't do it... I'm so scared I don't know what to do.