Terror night

Spent most of the day and night with some friends, and though mostly good times were had watching a series we dearly love (Supernatural) they wound up getting pizza and for the most part insisting that I eat. I ate, and it was way too much. Right now my scale is claiming that I gained another 2 lb, though this is freshly from his place so I can;t entirely trust what I see there. I'll have to wait until morning, even though this'll bug me for the rest of the night. I had planned to start up my fasting tomorrow and that plan stays as is. Nothing but water and hoodia diet pills. Maybe some diet soda.

thanksgiving

thanksgiving as always was a terror to me. surrounded by family and food and having no way out of eating a ton. the only plus was that i only gained 2 lb, even though that itself was way too much. starting monday i will be doing a 2 day hoodia fast. after that will be a continuance on my usual restrictions.

Start off

Well I'm not entirely sure why I made this blog. Most of the time I would prefer not letting the world know about what's going on in my head and how I really see myself. But I figured that it might be good for me to at least have someplace to put down my thoughts. Maybe noone will ever read this blog, maybe it'll just be another weird person's little sanctuary on the internet.

But maybe there will be someone out there who can relate, maybe in some odd way this will help someone out there in ways that it won't help me. I dunno, I don't have much of a goal for this, I keep my goals more toward my weight anyway. I suppose in some ways one might see me as pro-ana, I do realize what it's doing and going to do to me. But right now the goal is much more important than the effects...

On a side note, to maintain some aspect of anonymity I won't be referring to full names of course, and as for myself there are names that I go by but for now I'll just be K.