130

So after a terrible holiday season it seems I'm up a lot more than I ever wanted to be... now to lose that weight again. I'm on the right track today... coffee, cigarettes, and a bit of carrot and celery. A good kick start for now, I just gotta keep at it till I'm back down, and then some.

holidays

Well I'm psyched about the holidays... not the gifts and get-togethers but rather the fact that they are over. I am a christmas person, I get into the spirit and everything, I just despise the eating that comes with it. I feel like I weigh 200+ pounds after every meal... thank god that's not true. But still I haven't weighed myself (too terrified despite the feeling that I NEED to weigh myself) but I'm positive that I won't be enjoying the results at all.

With the holidays in mind... I stopped at a pharmacy on the way home to pick up some laxies... I just gotta empty myself out a bit... I woulda bought Ipecac if they had it... even though I'm aware that purging is a downward slope.

127

Well I'm finally down from 128 after what seemed like AGES. Restricting seemed to pay off a little bit, and thus I'll continue that again today. Sitting here with a cup of yogurt waiting for the ice outside to die down so I can go out X-Mas shopping. I really can't wait for spring and summer, it's hard enough for me to be CONSTANTLY cold, but when the weather is sub freezing it's even worse, especially when I'm out with my cigarettes...