Moved in

So I moved in with W now. I'm in a better place now, love him so much. Now I just need to drop the weight off. Thankfully I work a pot and there is a high supply of veggie burgers here so I can switch over to vegetarian all the way easily.

I need to drop off like 20+ lb as quick as possible, I wanna do the kekwick only problem is dieting while not letting him know what's going on too much... He seems to think I don't need to lose weight but I know I do.

So I'll be blogging more now my lovelies!

Hard to start

So I did pretty well today until I got home, then I got stuck with dinner with my roommate J and D. I had a sandwich. Though I felt the effects of it right away, and it just felt awful, so my current plan was to hop out to get what I need for the Kekwick diet but I'm not so sure I'll be able to right away, so I may need to hold off until tomorrow to get the diet stuffs... I wish it weren't so hard. Also last week W noticed my arm full of cuts, but he just brushed it off so I'm not sure what he thinks puts those cuts there but he doesn't seem worried which mean he doesn't suspect me... which is good.

Terrible

Well things are going great and awful at the same time, which is the norm now for me. On the plus side I'm happily with W, have a well paying job, and I'm about to move in with W, and I'm about to have both my cars (1997 Eagle Talon & 1971 Datsun 240Z) up and ready to go... On the down side I've gained weight. The downside is about equal to all the good I've gotten so far. I've done a bit of test questions with W and sorta see if he's alright with me losing weight, so far he hasn't said anything to stop me just stuff like 'Lose what?' and 'There's nothing there to lose'. But I recently saw some pictures he took of me one night and I look just TERRIBLE!

So I need to drop at least 20 Lb. I'm looking for the perfect time to do the Kekwick diet to jump start myself into metabolism city. I'm thinking that since I'm over at his place on tuesday night into wednesday I can't do it then. And I don't work thursdays or sundays... so maybe if I do it friday, saturday, and sunday I'll be good. I can pull that off no problem, 3 days of Kekwick and I should lbe down at least 6 lb... I'll need some support tho, so let those comments roll in, I'll be able to reply now that I'm all set up at the dealership.

Also I need to get myself a new red bracelet... something physical to keep me going...

Staying on track

Slow posting I know but with working 49 hours a week it's hard to get to the computron. I'm staying nice and on track: coffee cigarettes and diet soda. W enjoys my feminine frame so that's good, but I still need to drop down the weight and keep it off forevers. Oddly I never used my facebook nearly as often as I do now heh

Boyfriend

So now W and I are officially together. Something I have wanted for a long time... Now to figure out a way to keep losing weight while trying to maintain libido, and I have no idea how. If anyone has some ideas that would be great because it's not fair for me to be able to get him off like I want to but not for him to get me off like he wants to. Not gonna stop losing weight tho... just gotta find a way to make it all work.

Motivated

I just put down $100 toward my next car (1971 Datsun 240Z). I mention this to illustrate what I want I go and get no matter what I need to do for it. Now I have to make the sales, gotta be perfect nothing less.

Keeping the calories low to nothing. No weight change but no gain. Once I get myself all the way settled in here I'm gonna hop on kekwick, boost my metabolism, and knock the weight right off my bones. Perfection because I can't accept less from myself.

Working for the darkside

Sorry I haven't been posting I just got a position in car sales and I've just been real busy most of the time. But worry not for I'm back to blogspace.

I was finally able to get back into a high pay position which I love. I enjoy not just the money but also the fact that I'm not home as much so there is much less chance for me to wind up eating. And I've gotten odd positive comments such as people thinking I'm fresh outta high school and that I'm the skinniest person they've seen... Not sure if I buy the last one but whatever.

I've been a little off with dieting but now I'll be able to go full force. Caffeine and cigs, and I can afford the macadamia nuts for doing kekwick whenever I want. Now I'll be able to hit my weight goals as well as my money goals (moving out, car, clothes, etc.)

Today I will go without food. It will be a great day.